thoughtsss

its amazing the things you can learn when you go to another country for a long period of time. i have learned that no one has experienced heat unless they have experienced India in the summer months, showers are a privilege, not a chore, that hugs are a great thing, the simple life is more fulfilling, that when you really give yourself to the one who gave His life for you, you see things differently and life has more meaning, being uncomfortable is better than living a comfortable life and that sometimes you just have to let go of the things that the outside world says is important. I have learned, and done so many things here that I probably never would have done in America. For one, fishing ( aka throwing yourself onto the mud in hopes to catch a fish) with my bare hands in three feet of mud. As gross as it may sound, it was so incredibly fun. Im thankful for new opportunities to try things that may seem a little strange at first, but in the end are really fun. Today my heart broke in places I didn't know it could break for one of the little boys at the home. He has MD and is slowly losing control of his legs. Usually he is the happiest, most joyful, full of life kid I have ever met. Today he fell and hit his head and the look of sadness and defeat on his face as he cried was enough to break my heart. I look at some of the sweetest most precious kids and babies here who are HIV positive, and again I am left wondering why. To me, it doesn't seem fair that such young lives should have to go through things like that. But, I am reminded that I serve a big God and that he works for the good of those who love him and those who have been called according to his purpose. He has a plan for each and every one of these kids here and although it may seem a little cloudy to me, he already has it all figured out. So while it may not make sense to me, his plans are far greater than what I could think would be best for them.